“Change” is a Funny Concept

It can be sought after, pursued, or chased. It can be run from or avoided. But change can also happen to someone without their consent. Relationship, employment, and financial statuses can all transform in the blink of an eye, and you’ll be none the wiser for how they happened.

There’s a few things happening in my personal life right now that I can’t talk about specifically. But suffice it to say that this theme of change has been on my mind a lot. I’ve been intentionally making changes for a while, seeking out different life paths and forging ahead on dreams that I’ve had seemingly forever. I was cautiously exchanging certain parts of my routine for newer, shinier ones and taking my time getting adjusted to them.

Then I was thrown a curve ball. I didn’t ask for this new direction, didn’t seek out these particular life alterations. Had they happened months ago, I could have incorporated them into my plans, but now that I’ve already begun it’s like trying to fit a corner piece in the middle of a half-finished jigsaw puzzle.

Loss of control is one of my biggest anxiety triggers and I get overwhelmed when I can’t neatly fit everything in its proper place. But when change happens to you instead of with you, there’s nothing you can do except ride it out and tackle the challenges as they come. I’m excited about these new changes, but I’d be lying if I didn’t also say that they make me anxious.

That said, the best things in life usually do.


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